sticks and stones

constructive criticism is a tricky thing.  words aren't supposed to hurt, are they?  but they do.  i wish somehow i could change that switch inside of me that allows that to happen. 

this job-hunting process is becoming such a chore, and more torturous than anticipated.  the process started back in september of last year and there's no telling when it will end.  our last interview was towards the end of february.  they have chosen to hire "the other guy".  and the feedback we received is that i'm too intrusive, not interactive enough at dinner, and the talk of the alabama situation was too negative.  i wish i knew what to change.  i guess i have control issues.  it's so tough to find people that will accept you as you are.

as the hunt continues, with no clue of when we will find permanency, i think my faith is waning.  it would be nice if someone could tell me what we are meant for, where we could be of some help, and what is in store for us.