spent the entire day out of the house yesterday. it reminded me of 'back when' i used to do that every day. it's been 8.5 yrs since i've had to be gone all day on a daily basis. i don't think i would have the energy to return to that. kudos to all the working moms that do that all the time. i don't know how i did it back then.
back in the day it was 2 little kids, at least one up a few times in the middle of the night, alarm goes off about 1/2 hour after the last time i return to bed. leave the house to drive to work in the dark, many times return home in the dark. saturdays the kids spent eating and sleeping in the car all day as we ran errands from morning til night. sundays we spent driving all over town between church and visits to family and friends. monday morning we'd be back at it again. most days i felt like we would never get ourselves out of that rat race to take a breath.
12 yrs later, life seems like the complete opposite. if i leave the house at all it's an achievement. if i shower AND leave the house before noon, it should be documented. laziness seems to be the drug of choice these days. and on days when the sun isn't shining, well... we won't even go there. i have kids who cook, clean and babysit. i have kids who read to other kids. i have computer apps that teach the kids math and such. i have a cd player that reads the history. i have a very helpful husband, and friends who keep my kids when i want to run away. after all that, some days, it still doesn't seem like enough.
i wonder how i jumped from one rut to the next without seeing the in between? how did i miss the plateau? and how do i cure this escape i wish for, from things that others would give anything to have? anyone know which store sells the jar of contentment i need?
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wow, deeanna I had no idea how similarly we think. when you find the store that sells that jar of contentment please let me know. :)
miss your face here in Jersey
Yes, pls pass it on if you find it.
We are doing thankful jars this month. Everyday we have to write something we are thankful for and put it in a jar. My attempt to get me a better attitude. It makes me sad that somedays (ok, most so far) it is a real struggle to think of anything. Today I am going to write, the sky. Because I love looking at it. Somedays I can only see the small things in life(ok, the sky is not all that small)Hopefully that will hold me over til I can see the big again. Love you Dee!
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